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2010-10-14T01:29:00.000+08:00

I've moved!
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2010-07-21T23:15:00.000+08:00

Ohemgosh, I'm seriously gonna get bored to death reading my group's WR and editing all the grammatical and expression errors.
Ain't fun at all.
And there's lots of pages :(

I'm loving the fact that Mr Loy's now my tutor for H2 Math.
I can totally understand what he teaches us and I'm much, much, much more motivated to study my all time favourite subject now.
And I even did my tutorials, OMG what an achievement right?!

2010-07-05T23:54:00.000+08:00

OMG seriously, what the hell is wrong with me?!
It all started on Friday, during training.
My trackpants went missing!
Yeah, I changed into Half U for Drills, and when we had to change back to PT Kit,
I realised that my trackpants was no where to be found.
So, I had to wear mufti.
And after parade, I checked with the Sec 3s if anyone had seen it, and no one did.
No one even accidentally wore it or anything.
So, thinking that I will still be able to get it back during the next training or whatever,
I left the room and we all went home.

Thenthenthen, today, I realised that my phone earpiece and the Vodafone USB Internet Cable or whatever it's called are missing.
The last time I recalled using the USB was Friday night after training, because I was using the laptop in my room and I didn't switch on the Broadband.
And then Saturday was the day we went out.
Usually, I would put the USB next to my pillow on my bed.
And I didn't use it on Saturday night, neither did I use it last night.

The last time I saw my earpiece was yesterday morning/afternoon (after I showered).
I remembered myself taking my black earpiece and throwing my grey earpiece (the one that's missing now) on my bed, because I wanted to use the laptop and the latter's unnecessary. I didn't listen to music on my phone the whole day so I didn't really touched that grey one.

But then todayyy, when I was getting ready to go to school for PW and MLCS, I totally couldn't find the earpiece. And while seacrhing for it, I realised that the USB's missing too. So up till now, I'm still unable to find those two things.
Annoying much. I'm so dead lah.

Oh gosh, I'm gonna hate this week.
So full of PWs. Not looking forward to new lectures or tutorial lessons either.
And of course, going through exam papers and counting of the marks.
DIE I tell you!
I think the only subject that I won't get a U for is probably Sastera.
I hope so, but even if that's the case, it's not as if I'm going to get good grades for it.
My Malay also vehh hancur.

Can't even talk properly, apparently, I've got that English accent when I speak Malay.
HAHAH I talk like Fadhil, that's so amusing, but whatever.
I guess I can only speak in MIINAH language, because the minute I speak in Melayu formal...
LOL! I'm going to continue Suju-ing now.

2010-07-01T01:29:00.000+08:00

Okay fine, yes, I'm still online. I just can't seem to get into the studying mood once I switch on the laptop.
Nonetheless, I promised HO Brian I'll study at 0130 hours.
So I have to go off soon.
&I still miss those moments.

Oh, the things you do just makes me crazyyy!!!

2010-07-01T00:38:00.001+08:00

YAY I'm still awake! Okay, actually I took a short nap just now.
And dad was being noisy, kept asking me if I'm studying or sleeping =.=
While brother, on the other hand was being as annoying as everrr.
I was at the living room, trying to study on the couch (after the short nap, of course) and it was super hot, so I made the fan face me.
We ended up arguing and I got pissed off, so I took away my everything and went to the dining room to study.

Then after brother finished his homework (or whatever) he kept his stuff and started doing all the stupid stuff like marching along the freaking corridor from the living room to the dining room, and CHECK-T-L-V-bang back to the living room.
Oh, he's in NCC (land) btw, and apparently, tomorrow's NCC Day.
He asked me if I know how to do the Check-T-L-V =.= and I said NO!
Rhetorical question.

So, when everyone go to bed, I was left alone at the dining room.
Honestly, my eyes were very droopy then, so decided to make myself a cup of tea.
And yeah, I'm so awake now.
But I'm back at the living room, on the couch!

I'm gonna continue my Chem revision now.
Oh yes, did I mention?
My MALAY (both Language and Literature) went down the drain together with Math.
I really, really hope I can cover Chem so that I won't die later.
13 more hours and counting!

P.S: Brandon Ang taught me the leg version of Peace By The River =)
I just love having kiddo friends like him!!!

2010-06-30T04:44:00.000+08:00

MY ALARM CLOCK FAILED ON ME =.=
Okayokay I'm going to squeeze in sastera for all the time that I have now.
Sheesh.
Moral of the story, finish up everything before going to bed.
Now, good luck to me for later.
I just hope I won't end up singing that little song that my cadets came up with.
"I don't know, I don't care, I just wanna do my hair".
And hopefully, I won't end up thinking of Donghae, or any SuJu members, or whoever lah.

On another note,
SPAIN WON, YAY!
David Villa, <3<3

2010-06-29T19:42:00.000+08:00

Because you pronounced it as sas-tey-rah, I kept pronouncing it the same way as you.
I seriously have to thank my cadets for coming up with the "I don't know, I don't care, I just wanna do my hair".
Quite useful eh, for things like BIO!
So as you've probably known, I officially died for the paper just now.
Now moving on to Malay and Math.

I bumped into Amri just now. Catch up with her on stuff and we were talking like makciks (as always) at the bus stop. Then bumped into Kak Tini and Afiq, and disturbed that small boy.
He's as cute as everrr. I tarik his puting! Haha.
I just love to do this kind of stuff.

I need to settle some admin matters that Ms Seah wants me to settle.
Then off I go to revise.
Amirah, fighting!
I must do well, must not disappoint...
And afterall, it's the subject that Monster's teaching.
GAHHHHH!

2010-06-29T01:21:00.001+08:00

No more procrastination, I'm going to study at 0130hours.
Thank goodness it's afternoon paper later.

Now my shoulder's starting to hurt again.
Finally, school's gonna start tomorrow but why does it have to start with exams?!
I think the only thing that I'm looking forward to is the food at the cafe and my fruits&smoothies from Fruit Garden!
I know I've been complaining for the gazillion times, but still...
BIO SUCKS AND I HATE BIO!!!

Someone tell me, why did I even take up Bio in the first place?
Oh, cos I don't like all those humanities subjects like English Lit, Geog, Econs, History and what not (which explains why my contrasting subject is H2 Malay) and I can't take Physics cause I don't have a Physics background in Secondary School.
Which leaves me with no other choice but to take H1 Bio.

I really regret not changing my subject combi from Science (Bio/Chem) in Sec 3 part 1 to Science (Phy/Chem) in Sec 3 part 2.
This is all due to my lazyness to fill up the damn form and submit to the GO.
Now I'll have to bear the pain of studying Biology.

If only Nanyang has got TSD (Theatre Studies & Drama), I'd have taken that!
At least I've got experience when I took DEP last time.
But I think I'll still end up hating the theory part.
Sighs.

You know, maybe I might end up liking Bio if they actually come up with another Biology related reality show which has Super Junior on it.
Like Explorers of The Human Body, but maybe this time, they should focus more on the things in MY H1 SYLLABUS.
Then I can assure you I'll definitely get A for Bio because I'll end up watching them everyday to the extend that I memorise every line that they say etc etc.

Oh did I ever mention?
I memorise stuff that I watch better (eg lines on tv shows).
So if that SuJu-H1Bio reality show thing really happens, I won't be this miserable!

2010-06-28T19:08:00.000+08:00

I started off as TripleS. Then I became an E.L.F.
Soon after, I joined the V.I.Ps. And now, I'm a Primadonna =))
& a Boice too =))
Although I listen to Epik High, I have not fallen in love with them yet to call myself a High Skool kid, even though in reality, I AM A HIGH SCHOOL KID.
College & High School, same same but different.
I love life as a college kid, I just hate the studying part.
Especially when it's BIOLOGY!
Ughhh. Okay, all I know is that I'm not planning to screw Math and Malay and Chem.
But Bio, I don't give a shit. Totally.

Currently listening to:
Super Junior - Gee (Live Version) from Super Show II

Mengata dulang paku serpih, mengata orang awak yang lebih!

2010-06-28T13:37:00.000+08:00

"Is that my problem or your problem? If that's your problem, why are you making it my problem? Go solve it yourself! Don't make things difficult for me!"

2010-06-28T00:06:00.000+08:00

YOU'RE SO CUTE, I JUST CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU!!!
Why'd you have to do that?
If only I have a time machine and can go back to those moments.
Wouldn't that be awesome?!

MY LIFE IS SCREWEDDDD!

2010-06-27T18:40:00.001+08:00

Seriously, I should be studying right now.
I kept saying that I'm screwed for MYEs and yet I'm not doing anything about it.
Can I just throw away this laptop (even though it doesn't belong to me)?
It's one of the main distractions at home.
Surprisingly, I've not been watching tv a lot these days.
Because most of the things that I love watching can be found online.

Well, remember my promise of not watching anymore Korean movies/dramas this holiday once I'm done with Personal Taste?
I kept to my word!
What an achievement right?!

I should just pretend my life is this drama going on about a school kid, and I should just be fulfilling my responsibilities as one.
But then again, I am an "I" person.
I can't sit still without having fun.
This is gonna be difficult.

Okay, let's do it this way.
I promise that with effect from today, I won't spend my entire time online doing nothing yang tak berfaedah. Even if I do so, I'll limit it to only an hour.
I will spend my time wisely and use it to do something productive.

I am going to become a good student, who does all her work without forgetting other commitments like her CCA.
And even though I have 3 CCAs (in case you don't know, it's NPCC, Flag Party and MLCS), I know which one to prioritise. And it's definitely not the one whereby my role is just a "maam"... MAAM-ber!

So, I apologise to all my MLCS mates.
I have a huge responsibility in NPCC and I'm Flag Party's Vice President.
Therefore, I might prioritise these 2 CCAs over MLCS.
So, don't blame me if I don't go for meetings and what not.
Because as far as I'm concern, MLCS is my THIRD CCA.
And Flag Party may seem slack, but it turns out to be quite a demanding CCA especially if you're in Exco cause of all the plannings that you're required to do.
So whatever things you all are planning for MLCS, like the Racial Harmony thinggg, I cannot guarantee that I'll give you my 100%.
Sorry.

Saifuddin owes me my Appreciation Letter and my Certificate for the Team Building thinggg.
And I owe Feng Chong We $4 for the super oversized HCI shirt that he bought for me (okay, it's only size S, but it's still quite large).
I should really go out and study with him. Maybe that'll pull my grades up.
Smart Hwa Chong.
Actually I doubt it really matters who you're studying with.
Because right now, I'm having tuition with a genius (okay, maybe I'm exaggerating, but I still think he's super smart), yet my grades are still about the same.
This shows that I really, really have to studyyy.
AMIRAH, GO STUDY!!!

Back from camp

2010-06-24T22:18:00.000+08:00

Like I said in my previous post, I still have a lot more to learn.
This is my first ATC as a CI, but who knows, it may be my last too?!
Now, let's just wait for AAR and the next area event, which is the Inter Area Project-Based Competition.

Somehow, for some reason, I can't seem to change the brackets on my face from ( to ).
I really need a lot of effort to do so.
I can't even be like my usual, talkative self.
Because even when I talk, it's suddenly so soft.
Even brother was wondering what's wrong with me.

I'm breaking down soon.
And I'm serious.
So, I'm not going to study tonight.
I shall go and lie on my bed and do some thinking.

2010-06-16T00:16:00.000+08:00

Life sucks man. All these Korean stuff is wasting the shizz outta me.
And like, I KNOW IT but I'M NOT DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT.
I'm too obsessed.
If only I can have people like Lee Donghae or Lee Hong Ki or any SuJu members by my side to spur me on and motivate me (that kind of thing), then I'm sure I'll be able to work hard and study harder.
Seriously, if I can have at least one of them by my side to keep reminding me, "Amirah, you have to study hard, I'm right behind you", I'm sure I will seriously get cracking with all those books.
But then, reality bites.

My holidays have not been spent productively at all.
To make matters worse, being the coordinator for ATC is like...
I seriously don't know how to describe it.
There's so many things that I don't know and so many things that I need to learn.
Yet no one is lending me a helping hand.
My very first ATC as a CI.
With no experience whatsoever.
And I have to become coordinator. Awesome or what?!
It would help if the other CIs are cooperating.
Believe it or not, the camp's next week and there's still a lot of things not done yet.

This is so annoying the hell out of me. Can I not sleep tonight and just study?
Oh and did I mention?
I went to Tampines Library in the afternoon just now to so called study.
And you can guess what I did.
Read Malay novel =.=

Since I love fruits...

2010-06-13T22:32:00.000+08:00

I'm going to eat more:
1) Oranges & citrus fruits
2) Berries (whatever fruit that ends with -berry)
3) Grapes & Plums
4) Mangoes!
5) APPLES!

I'm also gonna eat more almonds and yoghurts.
There's a reason behind all these (winkwink).

With effect from tonight, I will start drinking lots and lots of water.
I am going to stay happy and healthy!
Fighting =))

2010-06-13T21:55:00.001+08:00

I need to have a 2 month break at an isolated place with nothing else other than food, solid fuels, mess tins, stoves, lighters, drinks, daily necessities and MY BOOKS!
In that way, I'll be able to focus better on my studies.
There's too many distractions here and there.
I'm always tempted to switch on the laptop.
Studying outside will require $$$, time will also be wasted on travelling and especially if I'm at the library, I'll be so tempted to grab a book and read instead of revise.

I hate it when the whatever software that's in the programme underline the words that I typed in red just because I used British English rather than American English.
Maybe because I'm a Blood Type A, I'm kind of a perfectionist. Though not to a large extent.

I should plan out my schedule well.
Maybe if I focus on my studies now and hopefully get promoted and do well (like seriously well) for A Levels, then I can finally take a few months break and enjoy as much as I can.
Like what Cikgu always say, the bitterness comes first but in the end, we'll still be able to taste the sweetness. That's life.
I shouldn't be living it with regrets.

So, I'm going to slowly transform myself into a different person.
Let's be a happy geek!

On another note, I should start watching what I eat.
Having a sweet tooth is really bad.
My blood glucose level was 6.7 yesterday and it's gonna be bad if it reaches 7.
Sighs. Despite this, I just bought 3 JumboChocFudge ice cream and 1 packet of Chips Ahoy cookies -.-
Oh and did I mention?!
I gained 2 kilos!
Omg, time to shed off those fats.
Stop being a pig lah Amirah.

And I want to have my old skin back.
Last time, I used to make fun of people with non-flawless skin.
Now, it's retribution for me.
Can I return to my old self?!

2010-06-09T23:32:00.000+08:00

I suddenly have this sudden weird urge to learn to play the piano.
Just for certain songs, actually, especially KOREAN SONGS =D
Yeah, I know, obsessed much right?

I think the first song that I want to learn is Lee Hong Ki's Still (As Ever).
Which means I've to study the tutorials on YouTube carefully.
But then again, I should actually be studying for Mid Years right?!
Oh God, I need to set my priorities right.
All these Korean stuff's killing me.

Oh I went to Marine Parade Library to study yesterday and today.
Yesterday wasn't that bad because I managed to do a bit of Chemistry, but today...
Sighs... So disappointing.
I ended up reading a Malay novel.
Tsk right?!
Okay, actually Sastera kiddos must read a lot of books, but then, even if I wanted to read, I should have read my Sastera book.
I can't remember the title of the novel that I read, but I wasn't really satisfied with the story because the ending was like... "Huh?! That's all?" kind of thing.
Annoying much.

Oh well, I seem to be sighing my life away a lot these days.
Been busy with ATC/STC stuff.
Finding manpower is a lot of trouble, especially first aiders and CHEFS (omg very important!).
Everyone's so busy that they actually rejected me when I asked them out for THREE dates!
On 22nd -24th June.
3D2N holiday trip with 6 Star accomodation @ Pulau Ubin, travelling via CRUISE!
What can be better than that right?!
Tsk.

Did I mention before that my phone crashed?!
I can switch it on, but the screen will be total blank.
Which means I can't freaking read messages etc etc.
I can receive calls without knowing who the caller is and call people only if I know their number.
Currently, I'm using my old Samsung phone that I passed to brother, but since I need a phone more than him, I guess he'll just make do with nothing for the time being.
But the thing is, MOST of my contacts are saved in PHONE MEMORY in my freaking LG phone.
And the phone just refused to connect to the Phone Manager.
To make matters worse, ALL the CIs' numbers are gone.
I mean, they're still in the LG Phone but not in my SIM memory.
Teruk lah!

BENCIII ARRR!

2010-05-26T11:38:00.000+08:00

OMG, I really hate today.
First thing in the morning, I saw a MONSTER!
And well, you know how much I hate monsters.

But I can't do anything about it.
Just bear with the pain and wrath that's developing inside me, I guess.

The science department's gonna start this thing whereby we'll be kicked outta the class if we don't do our tutorials.
Does that mean I'll be spending most of my tutorial lessons outside class?!
I don't know why, but I just can't focus on my work.
It's like, even when I promised myself to do my homework, I'll end up not doing them.
It's a bad habit that I should get rid off.

I've been sigh-ing my life away. People have been getting on my nerves and like I said, I hate monsters.

You know what?! Because you're my tutor, my mentor and my teacher, I SHOULD be giving you respect.
But has anyone ever told you before that respect is what you EARN, and not what you demand.
The only respect that I'm giving you right now is respect for the elders, and NOT respect because you're my mentor.
Because I still have some respect towards you, that's why I've not said the F word in your face before. Seriously, you ALWAYS get on my nerves.
But then again, thank goodness I can control myself.

MYEs start tomorrow and it's GP.
GP as in General Paper and not Geometric Progression -.-
Then we have Vesak Day holiday and I'm going to Beach Road with the Malay kiddos to get our barang-barang for IaLTC =)
Come Saturday, I'll say byebye to Singapore and hello Kota Tinggi!
Hopefully it'll be fun.

Chemistry Lecture Test 2

2010-05-25T00:19:00.000+08:00

Hey all! So, I passed Chem Test 2.
Got a C grade for it, which was a great jump considering the fact that I got a U grade for the first one.
However, let's all not forget the fact that the test was a simple one, just like what Mr Lee mentioned.
Maybe I could have done better if I didn't leave the revision to the last minute.

You know? I'm really tired right now.
I want to go to sleep. But I need to do this GPP thing that Rui Ling sent to me, and I totally have no idea what to write.
Zen me ban?!

On another note, SuJu's new album - Bonamana, rocks!
Like srsly! Go listen to their songs.
Awesome TTM!

Inter-active Leadership Training Camp!

2010-05-23T21:06:00.000+08:00

<3Good =)
Oh, I'm in the same group as Sufy!
Heh.

You make me melt like hot fudge on a sundae

2010-05-12T17:53:00.000+08:00

SHOPPING!

2010-05-08T23:22:00.000+08:00

I suddenly have the urge to go shopping!
It's been some time since I did that.
Problem is... WHEN?
& With who?

I need new tudungs.
New pins & brooches.
More clothes!
And jeans =)
Plus new shoes/sneakers!

And I don't know why but I want shutter shades and LED belt buckles.
I'm still looking for the Spongebob Squarepants pencil case that I wanted.
The ketuk besi mainan (toy hammer) that I saw at the night market in Bedok that time but didn't get to buy.
Hmm, what else?!

If your heart was a prison, I would like to be sentenced for life

2010-05-08T21:18:00.000+08:00

Whenever I'm around you, I seem to forget the things that are worrying me.
所以，请继续做我的朋友，好吗?
你真的很可爱.
我喜欢看你.

Insomnia? More like "I can't sleep because I've work to do!"

2010-05-04T04:14:00.000+08:00

What the shizz man?!
It's already past 4 am and I've yet to complete damn PI.
I hate this.
Each time I try to fulfill task requirements, my PI will definitely exceed 500 words.
Annoying muchhh!
Oh God, HELP ME!!!
&my back hurts!
I've not slept for more than 20 hours btw. And even if I were to sleep now (which is impossible since I've more to do), I'll still get less than the so called required 7/8/9 hours of sleep.
I seriously think narcolepsy will kick in tomorrow!
And ohmygod, it's H1 Bio first period!
Damn!

2010-05-04T01:35:00.000+08:00

PI, PI, please, I need to get you over and done with.
Yes, I'm still doing my PI at this hour.
My brain ain't functioning really well right now, I just can't seem to get my sentence structures right.

You know what?!
I know that I've been correcting people's English a lot.
I'm really sorry about that.
Maybe you'll think that I'm a show-off or a smart aleck or what not but let me tell you.
I correct my own English too.
It's like whenever I realise that my grammar or pronunciation is wrong, I'll repeat the whole sentence again to correct myself.

An incident that happened a few days ago portrays clearly why I am very particular about people talking to me using proper English with the proper sentence structures.
I mean, it's okay if you occasionally use Singlish because I use that too, but at least try to have proper sentence structures because different structures can have different meaning. So the incident goes like this.

Recently, I went to top up brother's and my own Ez-link card.
I topped up mine first (concession for MRT) and I gave the person 50bucks.
Then I told her I want to top up another card but this time, I want the concession for bus.
I didn't realise that the 50bucks that I gave wasn't enough because I didn't count.
So when I heard the woman asking me, "Do you have 50 cents?" (concession for bus costs $26.50), I thought she wanted 50 cents so that she don't have to give me coins as change (well you know how it goes), so since I didn't have any, I said "NO". Then she started getting all pissed off and went like "What do you mean by no? It costs $26.50!" I was being very blur then cause I couldn't hear her properly (due to the glass) and when I realised that she's trying to say I'm short of 50cents, I whipped out my $10 note and gave it to her, apologising at the same time.

At first, I was really embarrassed because I thought it was my mistake. But after thinking about it, I was like, "That woman is effing stupid, no offense about that!"
I mean, she could have said something like, "You're short of 50cents" or "You need to pay another 50cents". Instead, she asked me whether I have 50cents or not. Obviously I'll say no, since the only cash that I have left inside my wallet was the $10 bill. I'm totally annoyed!!!

So, you get the point that I'm trying to deliver here?
The way you say things might lead to misunderstandings.
Your sentence structures, your intonations, your pronunciation, all these are important.
That's why I pay very close attention to these small little things.
It's for my own good.
Though sometimes there's a little Freudian slip here and there and it might go unnoticed.

Okay enough ranting. Crack your brains and complete your PI, woman!
It's due later at noon.
Bleargh!

2010-05-03T11:23:00.001+08:00

Working on Final Version for PW PI.
Amirah, Jia You!!!

2010-05-02T22:58:00.000+08:00

I just completed 14 episodes of 海派甜心 in 2 days.
For those who don't understand, it's this Taiwan drama called Hai Pai Tian Xin, otherwise known as Hi, My Sweetheart in English.
Show (Luo Zhi Xiang) and Rainie (Yang Cheng Lin) are playing the lead and they're really really awesome.

I fell in love with Rainie's character (Chen Bao Chu) and I totally find Show HOT!!!
Like seriously...
Okay fine, I know I tend to fall for Chinese guys easily but I totally can't help it =)

2010-04-30T02:07:00.001+08:00

Hello world, yes, I'm still awake and I apologise for wasting energy.
The electricity bill is going to go boomz at the end of this month.
I feel really bad.
I should switch the laptop off right away, but lemme finish this first okay?!

Sighs. Believe it or not but I'm mugging Math right now.
There's a class test on Arithmetic Progression and Geometric Progression later.
Last minute work, I know, but what to do?!
Narcolepsy tends to kick in all the time during Math lectures (though I'm sitting right under the lecturer's nose -.-).
Let's hope that all will go well for the test and I really, really, really hope that I can maintain the A grade.
Cos my other subjects are... hopeless...

On another note, FRIDAY'S THE SLACKEST DAY FOR EVEN WEEK =)
Can you see the uber wide smile on my face?!
Like YAY!
It's Math (omg the test!), Math Lecture & GP.
Thenthenthen...

BYEBYE NANYANG JUNIOR COLLEGE...
HELLO TANJONG KATONG GIRLS' SCHOOL!!!

It's...
Training!
Gasps! I've yet to prepare my uniform =O
Zen me ban? Zen me ban?!

I Forget A Lot Of Things Because He Takes Up Most Of The Space In My Memory...

2010-04-28T01:06:00.002+08:00

Delete buttons don't work this time.
Why?!
It's so difficult to describe this feeling.
The sight of you never cease to make me smile.

I love listening to you, talking to you, annoying you, seeing you smile, hearing your laughter, being concern about you, admiring your talents, ignoring your flaws...
I seem to love EVERYTHING about you.

But the question is...

Is it worth it?!

Faith is to believe what we do not see;

2010-04-25T17:31:00.000+08:00

and the reward of this faith is to see what we believe.

I have to remind myself to STOP procrastinating at once.
It's difficult, I know.
But then again, I need to practice self-discipline.
Now my NPAP commitments have ended.
While it is true that I still have to handle things like area meetings and unit trainings, I need to set my priorities clear.

As much as I want to involve myself in SYFOC 2010 as a trainer, I can't.
Mid-years are approaching real soon and there's a lot of catching up that I've to do.
Like what I told one of the GOH Girls, sometimes, we need to sacrifice what we WANT to do for what we NEED to do.

I don't want any regrets. I've fallen many, many times.
But I don't want to fall again because of the same reason.

Dear Math & Chemistry,
I used to love you a lot.
Then I broke up with you.
I hated both of you because you started making my life in JC difficult.
I know I made a mistake.
Please forgive me.
I will do anything that I can to love you back.
Because I need to do well in you.

Dear Malay,
I've always loved you since I was a kid.
You've been the language that I use practically every single day.
No matter how badly I do for you, I've never hated you.
Even when I got another B3 after my second attempt at sitting for your paper in O Levels.
And even when I still got a B3 for the Higher you in O's.
But now, there's another part of you that I'll have to sit for.
Besides the language you, there's your twin called literature, aka Sastera.
The language you is a bit boring, while the sastera you requires me to read and analyse a lot.
So now, I am begging you.
Stay interesting because whatever it is, you need to remain in my long list of lovers until maybe after my A Levels =)

Dear Biology,
My feelings for you last time were neutral.
Maybe because you weren't being THAT difficult then.
What happened to you now?
Why do you have so many terms for me to freaking remember?
Why is it that one chapter of you can go to as much as 40 over pages?
Pity me please.
I have to handle so much.
And I must be impartial.
I can't afford to leave you in the lurch.
Because after all, you do play an important role in getting me admitted to university.
What should I do to love you?

Dear GP,
To do well for you, I must also be good in ENGLISH right?
While I can speak proper English with correct grammar and correct tenses, your cousin by the name of vocabulary is my worst enemy.
And I'm not really close to your relative called general knowledge.
I hope to improve on writing the essay you (which I know I'll fail for the first one), but I don't know if I can do well for the comprehension you, because I'll meet my worst enemy there.
How?!

Dear PW,
You're wasting a lot of my time do you know that?
And no matter how long I scratch my head and try to find ideas to handle you, I still can't get you right.
PW, this year will be the first and last year I'll see you.
Give me an A when we bump into each other again next year!

Dear Time,
I've said this once, I'm going to say this again.
You're really like a monster that cannot be reasoned with.
You respond like a snail to my impatience.
But when it's time for you to really slow down, you start to race like a gazelle.
Why can't you take a break?

2010-04-24T00:02:00.001+08:00

I've learnt that goodbyes always hurt.
Pictures will never replace having been there.
Memories, good or bad, will bring tears.
And words can never replace those feelings.

2010-04-23T22:12:00.000+08:00

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets.
So love the people who treat you right, forget about those you don't and believe that everything does happen for a reason.
If you get a chance, take it.
If it changes your life, let it.
Nobody said that it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.
So live life to the fullest and learn from your mistakes.
Nobody's perfect and we all need to believe in ourselves.
Keep your head high, never let anyone tell you they are better than you and always try your hardest no matter what others say or think.
Their opinion of yourself doesn't matter, yours does.

I'll take a bullet for you!

2010-04-21T23:28:00.000+08:00

The SAF Career Talk held at LT1 just now was AWESOME!!!
And CAPTAIN ERNEST IS HOT =)

I want to be like him, able to change people's life to the extent that they'll say to me, "Ma'am, I'll take a bullet for you".
The sentence may only be a few words long but the meaning behind those words... Oh my, it's really deep.
Today, I brought home with me a lot of new things.
But too bad for you, I can't share.
CLASSIFIED!

Time is a monster that cannot be reasoned with. It responds like a snail to our impatience, then it races like a gazelle...

2010-04-21T22:05:00.000+08:00

when
you
can't
catch
a
breath.

Sometimes when I say “oh I’m fine”, I want someone to look me in the eyes and say “tell the truth”

2010-04-20T21:22:00.002+08:00

"Looking back on what I said all those years ago, all the hopes and dreams I had, I've come to the conclusion that if having things turn out the way you wanted them to is a measure of a successful life, then some would say I'm a failure. The important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past, and recognize that every day won't be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair remember, it's only in the black of night that you see the stars, and those stars lead you back home.”

NPAP '10

2010-04-19T02:32:00.000+08:00

It's been more than 24 hours since I came back home from NPAP but I guess a lot of us are still thinking about it.
Yes, we shouldn't cry because it's over, but smile because it happened.
NPAP 2010 has brought about wonderful memories to me.
I learnt a lot, laughed a lot, played a lot, smiled a lot, got angry, pissed, TIRED especially but all in all, I know that I will never forget every single moments of this journey as a trainer.

Thank you to FIs, HOs and fellow CIs who have contributed to NPAP.
Not to forget the cadets, because without them, NPAP won't be NPAP.
Thank you Brandon and James for being around.
Even though the reason why you guys were there may not be because you wanted to support me, seeing your presence already motivated me.
To tell you the truth, while standing at the Unity Square, I wasn't looking up at the words "Honour And Unity".
I was looking at you (James) because you were seated somewhere right in front of me and then Brandon had to come and distract me (he was carrying his uniform and his bag was orange so who wouldn't be distracted right?!).
I tried to look around for SUFY and UMAIRAH but I couldn't find them in the crowd.

In the end, after the cadets returned the arms and we went back to the drill shed, I heard someone calling me and...
TADAAA!
It was Sufy!!!
Yay!
Umairah didn't come. Sufy's friend came instead.
Thank you both of you for coming down to support me!

I was very disappointed because I didn't get to take pictures with some people.
Like my cadets and Mr Muhammad Ahmad Bin Mohamed Shahrir!
I know I'll see them back in the unit anytime soon, but then again...
HELLO! THIS IS NPAP!
It's very different, you know?!
I don't even know when I'll get the chance to don on the Number One uniform and hold on to the ceremonial sword again.
And I didn't get to take pictures with most of my fellow CIs too!
This is so annoying, really.

Sighs. I wonder when will I go back to that place called Home Team Academy and call myself a trainer again?
SYF? I doubt so. I've to study for promos.
I don't even know if I can come back next year.
If I do, will I be able to don on that white tunic again?!

Studies have shown, smart peole are more depressed because they know the world can lie.

2010-04-18T19:45:00.002+08:00

2010-04-12T03:15:00.000+08:00

Seems like tonight will be another night of insomnia.
And later, no doubt I'll suffer from narcolepsy.

Wesley's staying awake to accompany me =)
So nice of him, right?
Yes Peh Sheng Shen, thank you!
Even though that's not part of your jobscope, you've always been the Mr Nice Guy cum good friend.
That's why you rock =D

Argh! I'm sick! My body/shoulder's aching (Ivan! Help!) and I'm having a flu plus sore throat.
Why is everyone not feeling well?
If this can excuse me from 2.4km run tomorrow, it'll be great!
But sadly, I doubt I'll be given any excuse.
I should go to a doctor for a check-up to check up on my leg.
Maybe there is something wrong with it.
Who knows right?!
Then I can get excused =)
Whee so happy!

I DON'T FEEL TOO GOOD!

2010-04-10T00:16:00.000+08:00

Things change and friends leave but life doesn't stop for anybody

2010-04-08T22:37:00.001+08:00

Rawrrr like wth is wrong with my Windows Live Messenger?!
It refuses to log me in since like... Ugh... I think almost 1 hour ago.
I really hate this man!

Oh well, whatevs.
Anyways, I got back Chem Lecture Test yesterday.
And as expected, I failed.
Terribly. Because I got a U grade.

However, I'm like so over it already, mum signed the paper and I explained to her that a lot of people failed and like the top student in class only got C.
Surprisingly, she was okay.
I guess she understood.
Because I've been complaining about how difficult it was for me to understand JC Chem.

And then today, we got back Math Lecture Test.
I was grinning from ear to ear when I got back my paper.
Why?
Oh yay, I got distinction!
Alhamdulillah!
Though I was happy, it was a bit disappointing because I could have gotten better.
They're all because of careless mistakes.

The irony was, G actually wrote on my Chem paper "Very poor Maths" when I made a careless mistake of rounding up the numbers wrongly.
Annoying much right?
In the end, whoa, A for H2 Math?
My classmates were like, "Do you know how to do well for Math?! Don't do tutorial!" because I NEVER do my tutorials.
Like I said in my previous post, it matters whether the teacher teaching in front of you is good or not.
This just proves even further how much G sucks.

There's NPAP training tomorrow.
Sia Chin Siong and Peh Sheng Shen won't be there :(
So who's going to send me home?!

Dear 3AM, we've got to stop meeting this way. I'd much rather sleep with you.

2010-04-07T02:33:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, you need to hit that lowest point of being sad, the point where you can't take it anymore and you completely lose yourself, to finally get back to your feet again.

Okay I just sighed.
Insomnia sucks.
Why do I get insomnia in the middle of the night and narcolepsy at the start of every morning?!
Annoying right?!
I want more sleep.
There's only GP and Chem (OMG, it's G's class!) tutorial later.
And then it'll be BYEBYE NANYANG, HELLO HOME TEAM ACADEMY =D
I heart NPAP '10.
I should go to sleep now.
From today onwards, I shall accept things that happen with a positive mindset.
Like I always say, I just need to show how hard working I am =)

2010-04-05T23:07:00.000+08:00

Mr Peh Sheng Shen sent me home again just now :D
&NO! There's nothing going on between us!
So don't ever assume anything, ohkay?!
It's just a case of "Oh you just reached the interchange and you're going home? Me too!" kind of thing even though that's not exactly what happened.
I bet he's sleeping now.
Well, he should cause he was really tired.
Actually, I should too right?!

2010-04-04T21:34:00.000+08:00

I just became fans of "I miss being little, when everyone was friends and there was no drama" on Facebook.
Oh yes, I miss being little!
If possible, I wanna be young forever.
Because young kids are just innocent souls.

Remember those times when doing math questions was like eating a piece of cake?
Getting full marks didn't make me feel anything at all.
There's just this question in my head that says, "Why is everyone getting excited? What's so good about getting full marks?"
Now, I'm struggling.
Don't even talk about getting full marks, I doubt I can even do well.

Yes, I know I shouldn't be ranting about how terrible my school life is because I chose this path.
Like I used to say, I can go to any courses in poly if I want to, but I didn't.
Not that I've never considered at all, in fact, to tell you the truth, I was so sure that I wanna continue my post-secondary studies in poly when I was in Sec 3 PART I, Sec 3 PART II and half a year of Sec 4.
Very, very sure to the extent that I even checked out the Direct Poly Admission criteria, the courses that I want to go to, etc etc.
If you don't believe me, go ahead and ask my fellow TK friends.

In the end, here I am now in Nanyang JC.
Loving my timetable to the max, but have yet to start loving my subject combination.
I can't believe the subject Chemistry that I used to love so much is slowly and slowly going to my hate list.
NO! I won't let that happen.
Really!

I guess my only solution is to start loving what I'm doing.
Just like last year, while mugging for my O Levels, the thing that keeps me going for subjects like Chem and both my Maths was actually my love for the subjects.
Hating Geog and Humanities made me study last minute for them and in the end, I didn't do well.

I AM NOT SMART!
I seriously am not smart.
I just need to have faith.

On another note, tomorrow's gonna be a day full of nags.
Nags from an old woman who just can't keep her mouth shut.
Because there's both Chem & PW.
Person, no doubt, you're my teacher and I should respect you, but MA'AM, I learnt this from my CI course and I'm using it against you.
You know what?
TO BE RESPECTED, YOU MUST FIRST BE RESPECTFUL!
I seriously think you're going a bit too far.
Why do you nag at the slightest thing?
WHY?!

I guess the reason why I'm starting to hate Chem is NOT because it's difficult (oh yes, it's difficult but I shouldn't be hating it because of that). It's because of YOU!
Just THE THOUGHT of seeing you and being in your class will make me feel terrible.

If you wanna say that I can't do well because I don't do my work...
Oh well, let me tell you.
I don't do my Math tutorials too.
However, I pay attention when my tutor is giving the answers on the board and from there, I learn.
Reason being, I just cannot understand lectures!

So for your case, the reason why I still can't get Chapters 2 & 3 and now 4 is because as usual, I can't understand lectures and also...
Because you suck!
You go through tutorials and you explain to us so fast plus you freaking nag at us.
You made us hand in the moment you finish all the questions and you didn't give us a chance to copy all the corrections.
You said it's okay if we haven't finish copying but do you realise that if we were to hand in the tutorials with corrections not fully copied and also without being able to actually go through it once again to make sure we understand everything, then by the time those papers come back to us we just won't be bothered to even take a look at it?

OMG I can't believe I'm actually blogging about you.
You really get on my nerves.
I still remember the time when you purposely prevent Hazmie from sitting next to me because APPARENTLY, we have been talking and talking during assembly.
And then when I tried to tie my hair, you told me to be serious and stop PLAYING with my hair, like wtf is wrong with you old woman!
Are you in your menopause stage or something?!
So when you said that, Hazmie turned to look at me and you actually went like, "Hazmie, you don't have to worry about her!"

Sesungguhnya engkau selalu menguji kesabaran dan keimanan aku!
Why do you talk as though there's something going on between me and him?!
You seriously pissed me off!
Just because both of us are like the only Malays in the class, that doesn't mean anything you know?!

Sighs. I'm done ranting. Byebye!

The truth is you could slit my throat and with my last dying breath I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt

2010-04-04T14:24:00.000+08:00

I feel like crying.
Can I?!
I just wanna let everything go.
Yes, I've been very strong and I've been thinking positive.
But I don't know how much longer I can stand on my two feet.

Sometimes, I just feel like giving up.
Then, I will start thinking about what will happen in the future, and I thought, maybe giving up ain't a good idea.
So, I continued to endure.
However, with many things in my mind, with many things to handle, how am I supposed to keep myself going?
I'm all alone, there's no point confiding in people because they just won't understand.

I'm at a lost. I don't know what to do.
I go on with my life like there's nothing bothering me but each time I do some soul-searching, I will realise that there are many things that I'm worried about.

Oh God, I need you.
Show me the light, please.

2010-04-02T22:59:00.001+08:00

Squad Outing today was... Oh well, I don't know how to describe it.
I guess Mad Jack Cafe's dessert ain't like how I expected it to be.
I thought the desserts looked yummy, so I skipped the food (since I ate a lot when Cikgu Irni treated us last night) and straight away go for the Mad & Rich chocolate cake.
Because they stated in the menu that we shouldn't go home without trying it.
Alas, it wasn't that nice. I should have eaten the cheesecake that I wanted instead.
But I did try the food that Fa ate, it wasn't that bad.
Although she said the soup was bland.
I should have eaten the brownie instead because when I tried on Aishah's, it was like...
OMG SO AWESOME!!!

Anyways, after lunch we headed to Bugis for SHEESHA.
Yes, sheesha. And that too, after balloting and arguing with each other on what to do next.
Fee and I shared a Double Chocolate Sundae and we ordered Strawberry Mint flavoured sheesha.
I swear the service there was effing slow and it sucks.
We had to wait for like, god knows how long, before we even get to order.
It's not as if the place was flooded with people or what.
But whatever it was, we enjoyed ourselves talking, taking pictures and reminiscing the old times.

NOW... Let's talk about more serious stuff.
Like... NPAP! OMG NPAP!
It's PREVIEW tomorrow.
Time flies right?!
I know I'm going to miss all these moments with my fellow CIs.

When I was a cadet, I used to think that CIs are really cool and they do everything with perfection.
Now that I'm a CI, I realised that CIs ain't really perfect.
We make mistakes too.

I feel so honoured to have the more experienced CIs to guide me along.
The very first lesson that I learnt during NPAP was from SCI Vincent.
Then there's the others like Rahimi, Firdaus, Fu Lin, Jolene, Wan Ling, Michelle, Zhiguang, Edwin, SCI Steven etc etc.
And being in NPAP also enables me to take the opportunity to get my Hwa Chong friends, i.e Feng Chong We and Cai Hongliang, to teach me Chemistry =)
Whatever it is, all the best to everyone taking part in tomorrow's preview.
Let's do our best and work as a team, alrighttt?

Meeting my 2 bodyguards at 7 tomorrow.
And yes, i love my bodyguards too =)
They pamper me a lot!
Heheh. Why do I love everyone?!

A Knot Tied By Angels' Hands

2010-03-26T02:17:00.001+08:00

Why do I get worried so unnecessarily?
WHY?!
Like it'll even change anything.
Being worried for someone who doesn't even know you're worried about him/her...
Is it even worth it?!
I should stop thinking too much.
AND START WORRYING ABOUT MYSELF INSTEAD.
Oh gosh, this is really annoying!

I should go to sleep now.
Lesson starts at 0730 hours later and it's Bahasa & Kesusasteraan Melayu.
It'll be a long day ahead because I'm planning to go back to the unit after H1 Bio.
Which means I'll probably reach home tonight at around 2030 hours?!
And then there's NPAP FDR on Sat and I've to meet SCI Steven at my void deck/the carpark at like... 0530 hours?
So teruk!

Dengar2 Aku Minah Rock Siol!

2010-03-23T22:24:00.000+08:00

LAWL this is really funnehhh.
Cikgu commented that if others hear me talk, they will not even think that I'm a H2 Malay student.

Cikgu: Kalau orang dengar awak berbual mereka tidak akan agak awak seorang pelajar Bahasa Melayu H2. Sebab awak berbual macam MINAH ROCK!

Heheheh. MINAH ROCK KAPPA?!
Rock pun rock lah, as long as I don't libatkan diri dalam gejala-gejala sosial =)
Kekek seh.

WHEN ALL YOU WANNA DO IS TO JUST DOZE OFF!

2010-03-23T01:51:00.000+08:00

OMG I'm so tired right nowww but I can't sleep YET.
It's really annoying you know?!
We used to talk about overcoming fatigue during CIBTC.
Now the fatigue's getting a bit too far.
I am getting lack of rests.
I might just faint anytime soon in school.
No wonder my head kept spinning.
It hurts a lottt, like some sort of migraine or something, maybe even worse that that.
I DON'T FREAKING KNOW!
I was seriously dragging my feet to school just now.
And for the first time everrr, when I looked out of 969 and realised that we're only at Punggol, instead of thinking "OMG this journey is so long", I actually thought, "Okay good, Sir, do you mind driving slower?".
Zzzz I'm going off now! Byebye!

2010-03-22T03:01:00.000+08:00

Good morning lovely people!
I'm still awake right now and yes, I know there's school LATER!
But whatevs, I'm currently in my stalkerazzi mode.
Damn teruk to the max right?!
Oh well, what to do? I'm bored.

Actually right, I'm not really stalking.
It's just a case of trying to get to know someone better, you know that kind of thing?!
Similarly, when I read my cadets' blogs, I'm not trying to kepo, it's just for the sake of their welfare.
Lol. I know! Welfare my foot!
Heh.

I think the lozenges that Dad passed to me was awesome.
It worked when I ate it for the first time, but when the second capsule entered my mouth a few hours later, all of a sudden the cough came back.
Yeah, in the first place why am I coughing right?

Lemme tell you, I'm not only coughing, I'm also having a cold, though not that bad.
Cause I've been spending my holidays back in my secondary school shouting and WHISPERING here and there.
Funny thing was my throat didn't hurt when I shout out the commands cause I was using my diaphragm but then apparently I strained my voice when I whispered.
Or rather, talked softly.
That's what Mr A said.
And then on Saturday, we had CCC in the rain... so yeah...

How I wish I can get an MC and prevent myself from going to school ~~tomorrow~~later but I don't wish to waste $$$ seeing a doctor. Sighs.
Thank god they cancelled the Basic Essay Skills workshop, if not, I'll have to report as early as 0730 hours.

There's Chem Prac first period in the morning and I need to photocopy the practical worksheets cos my printer ran outta ink. I hate Epson printers, why can't my mum just revert back to using Lexmark?!

"Ink mahal lah!"

So? At least you can still print even if one colour dah habis what?!
Damn annoying, the printer. Takkan setakat dakwat untuk satu warna habis lepas itu terus kita tidak boleh cetak apa-apa langsung kan?! Sungguh tak munasabah langsung seh.
Menggeramkan.

Dah lah, sudah larut malam. Tak, pagi. Ah, apa2 lah! Bye!

ʎpnʇs ʇdǝɔxǝ op oʇ ƃuıɥʇou ɥʇıʍ ɟןǝsɹnoʎ punoɟ noʎ puɐ ɹǝʌo sı ƃuıɥʇʎɹǝʌǝ uǝɥʍ

2010-03-21T16:48:00.002+08:00

-.-
Remember that face?!
The one that I drew on the whiteboard when I was feeling damn bored after doing hours of drills with Mr A and the Sec 3s.
That face reminded me of the incidents that happened in the classroom.
Of the situation that I posed to the cadets, which brought laughter to everyone.
It really made my night man.
Everyone was effing tired but in the end we all ended up laughing our ass off.
However, we still have not found the solution to the situation.

I feel really empty now.
There's no more campcraft trainings.
Meaning I'll only be back at TK on Fridays.
And that too, I've to make sure there's no NPAP training on that day.
TAN BING YU!
When's Area meeting?
I want Area meeting!
We need to plan for ATC/STC ASAP!

Why?
Cause I'm bored.
And I don't want my life to be full of school and studies.
Speaking of which, holidays end today and I have yet to complete my homework.
OH.
SHYT!

Victory Always Starts In The Head!

2010-03-20T21:29:00.000+08:00

Even though this time destiny did not obey, we should all be thankful to Allah s.w.t for giving us a very, very awesome position of 2nd runners up.
We beat BOTH of the Nanyang teams and we even beat TKSS!
I like the way how Mr A got all jumpy when we got 3rd, he really looked like a little boy.
And I have to thank Victorians for supporting us! I love you all just as much as I love TKNP.
You guys rock and I was giving my support to all of you =))
Area 11, we're just too awesome!

On a more serious note, I just wanna apologise to my cadets for what happened this morning.
Let's keep this between us ohkay?
It was my fault. I wasn't being a good example to all of you.
But we'll learn from this mistake and we'll move on. Don't worry too much.
I PROMISE I WILL MAKE SURE I WON'T COMMIT THE SAME THING AGAIN!
Sorry people!

2010-03-19T23:32:00.002+08:00

Hello?! Who's the CI here? Me or You? Please don't try to skip the hierarchy ohkay? You're not even part of the hierarchy anymore! So GO AWAY!
I'm not being sombong, I'm just annoyed at some people who's acts like big shots when they're not even of any importance at all.

CAMP!

2010-03-19T16:45:00.000+08:00

Oh well, I'm back! After days of having sleepless nights.
Camp has made the cadets see the other side of me.
The me who gets very pissed off easily especially when I'm tired.

Apparently, I'm starting to talk and act like Mr A.
Maybe hanging out with him during drills and watching cadets do what they call "sentry duty" in the middle of the night made me that way.
So Amri was saying, "Ma'am, you've become the girl version of him, only that you're nicer".
Haha. What to do? I learn from the officer =)

Campcraft finals TOMORROW!
I feel so bad for not being able to come down for training today.
However, I have faith in the team, just as much as how Ma'am Aidah knows they're going to be the CHAMPIONS.
Yeah people, we're one Bronze unit who has power and quality.
I'm definitely going to give them one of my talks tomorrow before heading off to Peirce.
Let's hope and pray that everything's gonna be fine.
All the best TKNP!

I may be turning 18 this year...

2010-03-09T12:33:00.001+08:00

But I'm still young at heart.

NO! This is not a case of trying to live in denial and not accepting the fact that I'm getting older.
Neither is it a case of me being childish.

Whatever it is, one thing's for sure, playing childhood games are fun!
& running down the escalator which is going up is also muchmuchmuch more fun.
Even though it can be classified as "kerja bodoh".
Haha.

Renungan matamu, setajam panah arjuna...

Dahdah, sikit-sikit saja.
I love the tune for Dian Yulaiha.
And Syafiq's voice is nice.
Go be Tok Juara lah!

I've got NPAP tomorrow.
Sighs. Another day at HTA with fellow CIs.
I have tons of work to do right now.
Prepare lecture notes for camp.
Prepare test papers.
Plan on how to carry out assessments for Sec 3 cadets.
School commitments especially!
&there's very limited time.
Did you feel the pressure, Amirah?!
YESYES!
Someone help me!

On another note, I think I screwed up my interview.
So, BYEBYE Pre-U Sem.

DEAR AMIRAH, GO AND STUDY!

2010-03-08T00:23:00.000+08:00

Time flies really, really fast. It's March nowww and it's the last week of school.
YAYYY!
Thenthenthen CLTC cum Annual Camp will start next week.
And as stated above, I have to start studying like REAL SOON!

Frankly speaking, after reading the newspaper on Saturday, I feel a lot more motivated.
To see someone that I know on the papers and knowing that that someone did really, really well.
Even though he may just be my ex-tutor's son and I don't really talk to him, but long ago I already expected and hoped that he's gonna be the top Malay student AGAIN.
And I was right.
I don't know him well, but I've seen how he works.
Which is why I know he's a freaking genius.
Good job, Haris!

I don't care!
During camp, when I have nothing to do, I'll leave things to the current NCOs and go up to NP Room to study!
Maybe Mr Ahmad can tutor me Chemistry too as promised.
Let's just hope he won't be such a ** during camp :)

I found out from Zee that they'll use our O Level HML results to replace A Level H1 Malay for local university admission.
My reaction was like, "Whut? So I got a freaking B?"

I really hope that I can do better for As than how I did for Os.
My Os results were quite disappointing to me cause I didn't get what I want.
I know I can't blame anyone but myself.
I didn't start early, tapi I'm still thankful to Allah for giving me a result that is considered good in the eyes of many.

I chose the JC path. I know I'm doing it the hard way.
But I need to feel the stress so that I can push myself further and work towards my aim.
Chemistry! Chemistry! Yeah man I wanna take up Chemistry!

Others may say that a Diploma is much higher than an A Level cert.
Let me tell you this.
The people who go to JC OBVIOUSLY can get into poly.
But if all of us go to poly, where will YOU end up in?

I'm not criticising those in poly. I have lots of friends who chose to go to poly too.
I'm just annoyed at how some people memandang rendah terhadap pelajar maktab rendah and they always think that they're better.
To fellow CIs who kept calling me "THAT JC GIRL", don't worry cos I'm not referring to you guys.

Okay I've got to go now. It's like really late and I've school tomorrow.
Whatever.

After a while you learn the difference between holding a hand and falling in love

2010-03-06T17:56:00.000+08:00

I fell in love with my __________.

Why do I always mix people's names up?
It's really annoying.

I bumped into Cik Isk and Cik Mai just now.
And then I found out that Haris became the top Malay student for A Levels.
OMG GENIUS!
I really need to learn from him.

Note to self: Just show them how hard working you are!

My NUS Pre-U Seminar Interview will be held on this coming Tuesday.
Hopefully, I'll be selected.
Pray for me!

Believe in yourself and all that you are...

2010-03-04T21:58:00.001+08:00

Know that there's something inside you that is greater than any obstacle.

I can't stop staring at the Campcraft Preliminary Round Results.
YES! WE MADE IT!
YAY!
TKNP, let's work hard together to get that title back ohkay?
I'll do my job as a trainer, you'll do your job as the trainees.
Can't wait to see you all again!

Maybe the next time I'll see them will be during camp.
Cos NPAP's keeping me away from practically everything.
From MLCS to trainings at TK.
But nvm, it's gonna be over by April.
I'm planning to back out from SYF.
"THAT JC GIRL" can't afford to focus too much on NP from June onwards because her Promotional Exams are approaching by then.
Sorry Coordinator.
&I love my GOH Girls' Contingent.
Though they're not that good...YET!

Apparently, I speak Malay with an English accent.
I couldn't believe it at first, but then too many people said it's true.
+ Husnul & Sam said I speak English like Englishmen?
You must be kidding me guys!

I don't need a photograph 'cause you've never left my mind

2010-03-03T00:10:00.000+08:00

Have you ever felt that feeling whenever you see someone, you freeze and your heart starts to beat so fast and you have to hold on to something so you wouldn’t fall?
Sometimes when they talk to you, do you utter stupid words and end up embarrassing yourself?
It’s not that you want it, but just the presence of that person makes your heart beat faster and slower at the same time.
Would you be brave and admit your feelings?
What if it’s simply not meant to be, do you give up?
Or keep trying and end up with nothing?
Well, that’s love.
Its irony speaks, but you got to take risks to get answers.
When you meet someone and you gradually fall in love with that person, try to express your love to her because every moment you wasted would be equal to tons of regret in the end.
Don’t wait until it’s too late to tell someone how much you love, how much you care.
Because when they are gone, no matter how loud you shout and cry they won’t hear you anymore.

There are many things that you need your heart to feel to seek the real truth

2010-03-01T23:27:00.001+08:00

Dinner with Charlie + a few others was nice. Even though it was sushi and I'm not a fan of sushi, I still enjoyed myself.
Yes, I was bullied a lot.
But it's ohkay. They'll get their turn soon.

I have to thank Samson for sending me home and for being my "bodyguard".
We actually walked from Pasir Ris all the way to Tampines to sort of burn our calories.
& to Saifuddin, I wasn't angry at you.
So chill.

I shall go prepare my stuff for tomorrow.
Thank god there's no NPAP!

2010-02-23T00:44:00.000+08:00

I completed 2 Power Point slides for lectures and 1 worksheet while waiting for proposals to be handed in.
Dateline was 22022010, 2359 hrs.
It's now 23022010, 1243 hrs.
I'm tired. Shall not wait any longer.
Go answer to the officer yourself.
Byebye!

AMIRAH =

2010-02-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

SPLIT
PERSONALITY...

1014!

2010-02-04T23:34:00.000+08:00

Satu.
Sifar.
Satu.
Empat.

Who's in 1014?!

DISCO NIGHT!

2010-02-02T22:39:00.000+08:00

OMG! TONIGHT WAS ONE HELL OF A SUPER CRAZY NIGHT!!!
Really hope I won't lose my voice.
&&&
YANCEY WON!!!
YAY!
It was really awesome how we actually rise up from 4th placing to 1st place!

Anyway, let's move on to much serious stuff.

SITI AMIRAH BTE MOHD AZMI , your application has been processed.

The subjects you are reading are:
MALAY LIT & LANG (H2)
BIOLOGY (H1)
CHEMISTRY (H2)
MATHEMATICS (H2)
GENERAL PAPER (H1)
PROJECT WORK (H1)

Oh well, even though I couldn't get my 4 H2s, I'm really, really glad.
Cos I'm not really that much into Bio so I guess doing H1 will be better for me.
Furthermore, I used to do Combined Science.
At least I still got my H2 Chem, Malay and Math =))

FYI, I just got back home. Damn tired. But then, I still have to print out my lecture notes cause lecture starts tomorrow.
& I'll have to prepare my uniform plus polish my boots for NPAP.
So troublesome.

Why is it so difficult for me to decide?!

2010-01-31T14:20:00.001+08:00

I WANT H2 MATH!
I WANT H2 CHEM!
I WANT H2 MALAY!
And BIO?!

I have yet to know what it's like to be in JC.
Orientation doesn't give me any clue AT ALL.

&i thought we were the only ones who think that way

2010-01-27T13:02:00.002+08:00

Snagged this off my cadet's blog.

"Mr A's amusing to watch, but only cause he's such a bitchy man. He's so arrogant and condescending and sarcastic and he mocks girls and their Twilight, bestest friends forever etc. etc. He says everything with a flair, and uses big words and then acts shocked when we don't understand."

NPAP's gonna keep me away from going back to the unit.
Are there any CIs that I know of in NYJ?
Well, besides Instructor Brandon...

WATCH YOUR FRONT!

2010-01-27T12:44:00.000+08:00

8 rounds. Fire!
I LOVE RANGE DUTY =))

Oh well, if you wanna know...
I'm posted to Nanyang Junior College.
My dad's psychic!

Boy, I can't stop thinking 'bout you

2010-01-24T00:54:00.001+08:00

People are like stained-glass windows.
They sparkle and shine when the sun is out,
but when the darkness sets in,
their true beauty is revealed
only if there is a light from within.

Lee Donghae

2010-01-23T17:13:00.003+08:00

Will you believe me if I say that I fell in love with you?!

Dude, you're 'Foxtrot Uniform Charlie Kilo -ing' annoying

2009-12-31T19:32:00.002+08:00

If I were to spend my entire life avoiding someone or something,
does it mean that it still has control over my life?!

I AM BACK!

2009-12-25T19:46:00.002+08:00